bittersweet symphony

jovi's back and i am hit by the love bug all over again
she has won me over
with ther sweet teethless grin
her deep deep dimples
chubby cheeks
tiny little hands and feet
the sound of her shrieks and laughter just
warm my heart
and i melt at the sight of her sweet smile.

and right now i am just really annoyed at the terrible schedule called my life
that has robbed me of anything that is a vague semblence of Life in general
cooped up in this terrible place in the far end of the island
isolated and deserted
(ok so its not that bad but i just hate the fact that i am so far away)
burried under mountains of papers and loads of homework
faced with countless deadlines
bombs with their red lights flashing away
counting down to my demise
and then theres tuition on weekends
that just about removes any joy of heading down to town
and robs me of rest
and sundays just become a drag and a chore.
the knowledge that the next day brings the start of a new week does nothing to help.

i'm tired
the weight of everything just presses down on me
and i am overwhelmed with emotion
i tear at the sightest thing
i just wanna crawl into a corner and cry myself to sleep
and never wake again

i miss my friends
i miss the fun and laughter they bring into my life
i hate the fact that everyone is scattered so far away
i hate the fact that our time tables just totally seem to clash
i just feel absolutely terrible.